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Change

My life has change, my life has given a 180 degree turn,I didn’t ask for it, trust me I didn’t,  I was happy, I was truly happy, I loved my house, my job, my little world, the weird bubble I was living in, but the bubble was popped, and here I am, standing in the middle of the nowhere but surrounded by people, working hard to solve a problem that is not mine but to which I have the solution to, losing all I worked for, what I dreamed about, for the greater good.

But is it really worth it? Is it wort it to sacrifice my present happiness for the probability of a better future, not only mines but others? I guess only time will tell, and I’ll just have to wait.

 

 

 

Why is my blood canary yellow?

I was born in 1988, which means I was an 80’s baby, a 90’s kid and a 2000’s teen, I am part of what we now know as Generation Y or Millennials  (thanks Wikipedia for the information). I’ve lived 2.5 decades, the changed of a century and the changed of a whole millennium, remember New Years eve 1999 when we all went crazy because the world was going to end one way or an other? Gosh we did have a hundred and one theories on how the world was going to end that night, I lived out the awkward silence at the end of the 3,2,1 because everyone waited a few seconds to yell out HAPPY NEW YEAR,  you know they had to make sure the world wasn’t ending before kissing their significant other or hugging grandma.

I also lived and still am living through what I like to call the earth’s change from analog to digital, my generation was the first generation to have access to computers in their homes, to own a tiny cell phone, y’all remember the Motorola RAZR in hot pink?, we were the first generation to use the power of the internet to do our homework (you know before the professor could notice if you copied and pasted it with the click of a button). But ours was also the last generation to pick playing outside over having your eyes glue to a tablet, last ones to have only one phone line at home, some people don’t even have one at all anymore.

I also believe our generation was in some way more respectful of others, it is funny how I found myself saying “This upcoming generation it’s just plain disrespectful” last night, and I looked at myself and though “oh lord I have become my mother”. Last night as I’m getting home from my daily bike ride , I was about two houses away, I hear a car behind me as every polite biker would I moved myself to a side to allow the car to pass me, and then I hear a pop followed by an other pop and a sharp pain on my butt, I heard the car accelerate and pass me, as the passed by I saw the silhouette of a gun. I automatically panicked, I had been shot, so I put my hand on my butt and it feels wet, I closed my eyes as I got ready for the worse and then open them to look at my hand, huh why is my blood canary yellow?

I had in fact been shot, with a BB Gun!!!! I walked to my from steps, had a seat and then I broke down crying, I was alive, no bullet stuck in butt cheek, sure my favorite yoga pants are now fucked by a big yellow stain and I have a bruise the size of an orange on my left cheek, but I am perfectly fine. I thought about calling the police, but I had no distinctive remarks about the car or the kids, so what good would that be? All that is left to do is to be thankful that it was nothing major, go inside try to clean my pants, take a shower and go to sleep, but as I am going all these all I can think is “Where are these kids parents?”

Of course I cannot blame the parents completely for this, kids lie, kids do things behind their parents, kids are easily influenced by other kids, that does not mean that the parent is doing a bad job. But I feel that this generation has no respect for other, they don’t care about hurting others and are also less afraid of getting in trouble over all. I understand change, and I get it the world evolves and every generation is different, but I believe this generation is losing touch with was morally and humanly correct, so I can’t help but to wonder where and when did we go the opposite way on distinguishing whats right and wrong? What’s your openion?

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XOXO

25 things about being 25

I love group text, they keep me connected to my friends even when we are all in different states, is not the same as sitting with them having a glass of wine while watching Netflix but is the closer thing we have to all  being in the same room at the same time. We text each other all the time and we never know when the conversation started or when it will end, and I love it!!

While texting away this week we got into the conversation about how your life changes once you turn 25, since I am one of the oldest in my group of friends I often find myself giving advice to the others. This time i found myself telling them “A lot it’s going to change once you hit 25”, they asked me why or how and I couldn’t come up with a good explanation but telling them that it just does and that they will understand what I am saying once they get there. So as a way of giving them an answer to who things change once you get to 25, and because I enjoy making list and using bullet points here are 25 things that happen once you turn 25.

PS: most of these, and by most I really mean all of this, only apply to women, sorry boys but I really don’t know what to be a man is.

  1. Wine is now your best friend.
  2. All your friends now have kids, they may or may not be married, but they have kids.
  3. Your wedding calendar is booked during wedding season.
  4. You start drinking socially and not to get wasted.
  5. You can’t really get wasted anymore; you’re sober one minute and almost dying the next, there’s no in between.
  6. You really don’t want to hang or go out with those that like to drink to get wasted; the idea of going out with Maria gives you a headache because you know she will want to drink the whole bar and she can’t “handle her liquor”.
  7. Your circle of friends gets even smaller, and this has nothing to do with everyone starting to have kids, it has to do with growing in different directions.
  8. Having your own place so you can have people over and “entertain” becomes a most have.
  9. Getting a boyfriend is no longer a matter of having someone to hang out with, now you are looking for a possible life partner, so yes you get picky or picker if you were already a picky one.
  10. One day out of the blue someone will call you ma’am and then there’s no stopping it after that, it will happen daily.
  11. You handle you money different and better, also saving becomes important.
  12. Pulling an all nighter, hahahahaha what’s that?
  13. Making new friends is hard, again because you’re picky.
  14. Staying in sounds way better now than it did only 3 years ago.
  15. You realize romantic relationships don’t get easier with time, you are still going to get your heart-broken at 25 and it’s going to hurt just like it did at 16, the difference now is that you can handle it better.
  16. You start doing things alone you would never imagine before, like sitting at a bar and having a glass of wine or going to the movies.
  17. You can now rent a car, congratulations!!
  18. Being single sucks, but at the same time is not that bad, that one is kind of confusing but once you turn 25 you’ll get it.
  19. You smile more, you laugh more, you become nicer to people, your pride is not always in the way.
  20. Brunch becomes your favorite meal, forget the fact that is not a real meal and it only really happens on Sundays.
  21. You start telling 20 year old “you are only 20, you still young and have a lot of time”.
  22. You don’t like to be around 18 year olds, because they make you feel like a grandma.
  23. Part of you is in and up to date on all trending topics, but part of you is clueless about wha is trending, and it can get really confusing when what is trending can change over night.
  24. You actually take your time and think before making any type of life changing decisions.
  25. You now appreciate life, realize that it is only one and you most live it happy, so you start doing things to like, be around people you love and love you back.

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XOXO

You shall not… be in love

Recently I found this article titled Forbidden Love thanks to the comments section on The Daily Post Community Pool, I’ve been desperately trying to find it again to share it with you, but it seems like the blog got lots in cyberspace and although I would love to perform some Tron like acts, get in there and find it, we all know I am not able to do it.

The writer talks about how she involved herself in a relationship that was forbidden, she does not explain if it was a romantic relationship, a friendship or if she just liked to sit down to have sandwiches with the homeless man from around the corner and her mom didn’t like it, all she said was that it was forbidden, but at the same time it was a real loving and caring relationship that helped her grow as a person and see the world differently, I relate to the writer because I was once in her shoes.

Some times we love or fall in love with people we are not supposed to and when life forces us to end this relationships for a reason or an other, we tend to believe this is the end of our entire world, only with time, if we choose to, we get to understand that maybe this end was the best that could have ever happened to us and that because of it and this person we once loved so much we are now a better happier person, and I say if we choose to, because we are the ones that have to decide if we want this change to do us good or bad.

I once loved someone with all my heart, like I never loved anyone else, myself included, before. I knew from the beginning that I shouldn’t fall for this person but I did it anyways, because at that moment and during that time it was what my heart wanted and what I thought would make me happy. And when it ended I saw my world crumble to the ground, the happiness left my life and I allowed it to leave, for a long time I hanged to the possibility of things going back to how they were and I let depression take over my life.

It took time, a lot of effort and dedication to realize that the end of this relationship was actually the start of my new and better life. This person showed me so many great things, thought me how to love and be loved, how to be a better person for someone else but myself, but the most important thing this person gave me is the power to understand that I am the one in charge of my life and that I am the one who decides if I am going to learn and grow from my experiences or if I am going to let them drawn me.
I am happier now, I still care and love this person, I am thankful and have a lot of respect for him, but my world no longer revolves around him, I am now the center of my universe.

I wish I could have found the article to share it with you guys, maybe you could relate to it to. Feel free to like, comment or share.

XOXO